| Jun. 19th, 2007 @ 08:47 am Fuck It All! |
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Current Location: Work
Current Mood:  envious
Current Music: Lou Rawls- "You'll Never Find"
So as some of you may know I had 3 prospective relationships lined up, why? The answer is simple, they are all lacking essential qualities specifically the one quality that is to me one of the most important ones, availability. I figured that I would keep all of them around because one of them is bound to come through on a date or wake up and notice that they have a real man that wants to fulfill their every need emotionally, financially and yes even sexually but I was sadly mistaken. I have known Women #1 since high school, I in fact was interested in dating her but she knew that she was not ready for my type yet so I gave her the option of contacting me when she was ready for the real thing and not douche bags named Jay. Girl #2 I met at church, good job right? Wrong, very bad job she was the devil in disguise. Girl #3 I met at work, who I actually began to fall for foolishly. I'm one of the worthwhile men still left in this world, I cared for these 3 unconditionally and non-judgmentally, I gave and gave and gave and all I asked for in return was a little bit of their time but it was all excuses, excuses excuses. I continued my unconditional support and care but the situation never got any better so now it is to turn it off and give what I get which coincidentally is zero. I was a fool to think that a relationship can be a healthy one when its anything less than 50/50, I thought that unconditional love and support was the key to making it work but again I was mistaken and for this error in judgment I have suffered greatly emotionally when all I had to do was say "Fuck it all". So Fuck it all! |
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